Today was such a weird day. My photography class went on a trip to the Suffolk University, it totally confused my mind even more. The man who was giving the tour basically made it seem like a waste of time. I don’t mean this on a negative tone, in fact far from it. He said that no matter whether you have a degree or not you always have to start at the bottom of the industry i want to get in to. So what’s the point of spending 3 years at university getting myself in stacks of debt when i could just build up a portfolio and travel for a year. That’s my mum’s idea, she said she’ll support me if i want to move abroad for a year. To her, university was my way of gaining independance and having that life experiance, which to be honest i do need. I want to explore myself a lot more, i guess i want to find out who Jessie Mateer REALLY is not just who i think i am. I really do not have any idea what i’m going to do next year but whatever it is, i have to decide pretty quick considering my applications have to be finished and submitted by Christmas.

Today wasn’t all confusing and bad though, i finally got to see Summer after what seemed like weeks, we went down to Christ Church park and sat by the duck pond. It was lovely to just relax and hang out with her, i always feel so settled and relieved of everything when i’m with her. We had a catch up, with some giggles and cuddles. I want the weekend to hurry up! Three nights of Summer in my bed equals pure perfection.

It definately feels like Winter, silly me forgot my coat today. I was literally frozen on my way home, it was so cold. I came home to a huge mug of tea though, extra sugary! Saturday i’m finally going shopping for a new coat, can’t wait to go out on chilly nights all wrapped up warm.