I’ve felt a bit lost the last couple of days, i’ve been knocked off course quite a bit. It’s all down to not feeling good enough for you, like i’m a disappointment. I have tried to live my life and keep the same morals i was brought up with but i find it hard sometimes. Considering i enjoy life which involves my gorgeous other half who happens to be a girl. I’m not willing to hide who i am anymore because i’m scared you’ll disown me. This time i’ve disowned you before you got the chance to do it to me. I’ve tried to forgive you for everything, i hate having all this anger against you. It doesn’t feel right, but i don’t know what other emotions or feelings to have for you. You’re not the man i looked up to, the man who i felt i could always run to. I feel bad for what i said to you last night but i am so emotionally drained i can’t keep everything inside anymore.

I’m fed up tonight and really disheartened.