I didn’t go into college today which was good because i was knackered. I swear it takes me double the amount of time to get over a hangover than it used to. I’m in a way better mood than yesterday which is a bonus too. I have literally done nothing all day which lands me the laziest person award but heck, i needed some time alone to sort out my head. Mother Mateer has been such a babe the last two days, i think it’s because she totally understands where i’m coming from on this subject. She also knows exactly what you’re like which is a bonus because i don’t feel like i’m just being an attention seeking teenager. I am however feeling like everything is coming even more together, i had such a good night Monday. I danced the whole night away and went to sleep a very happy lady. There’s going to be more nights like that coming up and i’m so excited for them. I don’t think i have been concentrating on my friends maybe as much as i should be.

I seriously need to crack down with college, i’m slacking so bad. I had a tutorial with my form teacher which kinda brought me back down to earth. I need to set everything aside for a while and concentrate on college and what i’m wanting to do next year. Which i still have no idea what i’m wanting to do, it’s not getting any easier either. Things are changing and maybe not for the good either. Don’t get me wrong, some things are changing and i’m totally enjoying it. I’ve never been happier despite the angst that has risen the last couple of days. I just feel like maybe some feelings are changing in some parts of my life, which i need to act upon because never again will i let something hold me back. I won’t keep being let down, i feel i’m a lot stronger than to let that happen.