It’s Christmas eve tomorrow and i couldn’t be any more excited. The first Christmas that Mum and Red have been married and we’re officially a family. It sounds so corny and cheesy but it’s the little things that matter to me like that, it’s everything I’ve wanted and now I’ve finally got it i can’t be enjoying it anymore than i am. I had a long conversation with my Mum today which made me realise a lot. I have been fantasising about what was and what i wish things were like, being caught up in these fantasies has stopped me from appreciating what i have at the moment. Which to be honest is a lot. I have an amazing beautiful partner, brilliant friends, a mother and step dad who i love dearly and for once my life seems to be going some where. I think taking things and people for granted has always been my down fall, i never realise what i have until it’s gone. I hope that changes this year, there’s going to be some big changes and i can’t welcome them enough.

This year has gone so fast, it feels like yesterday i was looking forward to saying goodbye to 2009 and now I’m getting ready to say goodbye to 2010. This year has brought me so much happiness, and some really amazing people. I’m leaving this year behind with so many memories, new and old friendships, love and a goal for the future. I’m leaving all the bad behind me, I’m fully aware i say that nearly every year but the last few years i haven’t felt this motivated, enthusiastic and optimistic.

I’ve finally found out who i need and what people i don’t, you’ll know which category you fall in to. I’m tired of making the effort with people who just don’t try back and hurt me in the process. I’m done with the fakeness, the lies and the people far too worried about who is sleeping with who, what she said about her and if they’re cool enough. All of that stuff doesn’t define a person and to be honest it’s plain boring and i’m tired of being around it. All i’m interested in is being around my loved ones and having a pretty damn good time. Bring on 2011!