People complain way too much, myself included. We are all too busy dwelling on the bad things to notice the good things going on around us. People don’t appreciate the small anymore, it’s all about what they can benefit and how fast they can get it. I feel like life is changing so quickly and I’m just just sitting back watching it, I’m not embracing it or enjoying it. I feel like I’m in a bubble and i can’t find anything sharp to pop it. I’ve been trying to figure out what friendship is, what the true meaning behind it is. I’ve had so many friends in my life and now i couldn’t tell you one thing about them, i probably wouldn’t even recognise them if i saw them. It’s sad how someone can mean so much to you and then you don’t even acknowledge their existence.

What is a true friend? Someone who goes out and gets drunk constantly, they’re never one to stay to stay in? Always up for a party, has you laughing non stop and never makes you think of the bad? I think that’s a load of rubbish, i feel like i have too many of those people around me. Of course we want people to go out with, have a good time with but what about when the parties stop and the clubs shut. Who are they then? I’ve been thinking about the people around me a lot lately, and which people are sincerely there for me. Not just when i wanna go get drunk or fool around. The people i can actually call when i don’t feel very good, when i need someone to listen to me. When i just want a simple conversation, no bitching, no drama and no complications. Just a general conversation. Good conversation is so hard to come by lately, i feel like everyones forgotten how to be intellectual. I don’t care whose sleeping with who, and if that girl added your boyfriend on Facebook. I generally couldn’t care less, but perhaps it’s me whose to blame. Maybe i just don’t care as much as i used to or maybe i’m just growing up. Either way, i need to re arrange the people in my life because half of them drain the life out of me.